Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost

I read of over my blog posts from the last few years & i’m sort of upset with myself. But it’s sad that nothing has really changed. It feels like I’ve been waiting for some big change to happen, especially now since high school is over with, but I’m beginning to think i’m psyching myself of for something that’s never actually going to happen. I don’t know why I allow things to go deeper than they should be. & I don’t know why its so hard for me to just let something go. It’s so difficult for me to push certain feelings to the side. & If I do for a little while, they always seem to resurface.